I haven't slept for days

I hear whispers at night,

I feel hands on my throat.
They don’t want me to fight,

so today I wrote this note.

My eyes are stapled shut,

but my mind is wide awake.
There’s a feeling in my gut

when my body starts to ache.

There’s a man in my room,

he’s been here since May.
He wears a dark costume,

but he’s gone during the day.

These pills aren’t working,

my head is still at war.
I know that he’s lurking,

right there by my door.

Whenever it’s time for bed,

I feel a weight on my heart.
I start counting in my head

for the nightmare to start.

It was 4 in the morning when I turned on my light.

The last time I checked, it was only midnight.

My head falls on the pillow as I let out a weep.
This is yet another night without any sleep.

Losing Myself

A cold hand on my wrist,

It distracts me from the pain.

My dreams turn into mist.

Can we go to see the rain?

A cold breath down my spine,

A low whisper in my ear.

Let me take your hand in mine,

We can walk through the fear.

A vibration fills my core.

There’s a light on my shelf.

I feel my heartbeat once more,

But I’ve already lost myself.