Failed Aspirations

Chasing a dream that is not my own
Fighting for the destiny I was assigned
An ache in my chest, a truth overthrown
My soul yearns for a life that it can’t find

In this warfare, I’m walking alone
Trudging a path that I don't believe
A battle for a future that is not my own
A life pursued that I can't retrieve

There is a smile, a mask of grace
While conflicts within my spirit wage
Chasing dreams that leave no trace
My life is scripted on a distant page

On sleepless nights, I drop my disguise
For this endless road, fogged and gaunt
For the dreams I let go, for a life full of lies
For the fight for a future that I don’t truly want

Immortal at Twenty

At twenty years old, my soul unfolds

I feel immortal with tales untold

As a silent specter, through time I roam

Empires rise and fall, a ruler loses his home

Kingdoms crumble and cultures wane

I stand watching like a permanent stain

Replaying memories, grieving anew
Longing for futures that once seemed true

Your laughter, your smile, stories we spun
Each day a battle, since you were undone
A void remains, so aching and deep
Reminders of promises that we failed to keep

In the stillness of nights, when my heart weeps
You come to visit, bringing solace and peace

But a moment passes, the room goes still
You always leave me stranded on this hill

I’m twenty years old and not truly immortal
Just held prisoner in time’s cruel portal
Longing for chances, yearning for embrace
I wander through time as a forgotten case

In my imagined eternity, our moments replay
Time may pass, but memories forever stay

A canvas of moments, painted by the past
Brushstrokes of love, each memory shall last

In galleries of time, moments play their part
Cherished memories, a masterpiece in my heart
You and I, forever bound by art’s sweet call
In my immortal heart, you will never fall