Locked Away

I lock the door upon entering a room

Just to make sure I keep predators away

Overthinking makes me believe they’ll assume

I’m an actor, playing the role of a prey

Because I’m not as tall as I appear to be

I do care about what people think of me

You say insecurities make you feel blue

But I believe that they actually kill you

I was wrong to consider myself carefree

Others opinions absolutely terrify me

And I was wrong to think this was a duet

As I always end up with a feeling of regret

Though confessing gives you water in thirst

I can’t let anyone look under the cloak

The effect is somehow always reversed

And I end up wishing I hadn’t spoke

“You should try talking to someone”

But honestly, does anyone truly care?

No one likes the one who kills the fun

It doesn’t matter if they’re choking for air

And something that people don’t understand

Is that I wish I could lash onto their hand 

But I’d prefer to hide in another dimension

Than be labeled as a whore for attention

So I lock the door and turn off the lights

Curl up and sob into the darkest of nights

Double-check that there’s no one outside

My skin once bright can now be dyed

Listen to the voices behind that closed door

Feel their laughter stab me in my core

And even when people try reaching my soul

I make sure to never put the key to its hole